lovely diaries

2012-02-09T23:36:00.000-08:00

Finally I have someone with me for Leehom concert, definitely not to let this chance of meeting him to slip from my hand. besides JJ, his song influence me most. he has such sweet voice and look at his talent in music, it is such so impressive! hope everything goes well, the tickets are still available. haha heard that exam going to start on 3rd of march, which falls on the same day leehom having his concert but who cares about it. my mind now is all about leehom, leehom and leehom! got so excited over it. worse, having exam on my birthday and I heard it was biology on that day. Hope to be lucky star on that day then. being positive is my all time thinking. =)

I barely care for my studies although I know this year is important to me. what can I do since I could not be bother about it, right? hope things improving in the next few weeks. Promise to change!

2012-02-05T06:23:00.000-08:00

My grandma is the heroin

She complete every task givin to her without a sign of complain. infact she like getting herself busy, not that she dont relax but she enjoy helping all of us in the family and others as well. all of her friends was moved by her kindness and we all know it. sometimes when she fall sick, if it is not serious she will keep it to herself for not making others to worry. She cook the most delicious food on earth and make cookie that nobody can ever replace this taste in my taste bud. besides all those delicious food, she take good care of all of us, she will make soup every time we visit her, almost every week and not to left out herbal tea as well. After the delicious dinner, I will be serve with my favourite fruit, mango! How can I not love her so much right? She take care of me from head to toe. She even make blanket out of the little cloth and givin to all her sisters and family. I have one that she personally choose pooka dot as the cover because she know I like it. She often told me she wanted to give to all the family members so that one day when she was not here anymore, people can still remember her whenever there saw or use the blanket. But dont worry, your foot step in all our heart will never be erased as it stick as hard as uhu glue.

My granny is awesome right? (^^v)

2012-02-03T22:11:00.000-08:00

can pass be easily throw away?
although it was a past tense now but it did happen before
you should always remember whatever happens because
everything that happen carry a meaning.
It was that meaning who branches out to more complicated things
where most of the people will then add up theirs words to make the branches even longer
it run out too far, till the point that it loss it`s original meaning
In the end, the words that we would like to express will be misinterpreted.

2012-01-31T00:21:00.000-08:00

WILL IT MAKE YOU HAPPIER TO MAKE FUN OF OTHERS?
TRYING TO MAKE ME FEEL ASHAMED?

who do you think you all?
dont think that I dunno what you have done behind me
I got ears, eyes and I have been in the same class with you for 3 years
naturally I understand you are the which kind of people
I heard your conversation, you even shouted it out.
so what if I am ugly with pimples growing,
or totally imperfect.
I dont see any of this has anything to do with you
Its none of your business, so what are your motive up to?
if just getting me ashamed, and I would like to said, sorry you FAIL!
I can dare said you are a FAILURE IN LIFE!
come to me directly and said it loud infront of me
if you have so many complains and stuff!
will see which day if I really got my patient off guard,
I am definitely going to make matter worse for you
Dont think that I respond nothing to all your jokes on me
that does not means I dont mind, watch and see!

2012-01-20T08:17:00.000-08:00

took my first blood test for hepatitis B
here I proudly announce I have no more phobia against needle
I am more calm compare to last year injection.
so if you were to ask me how does it feel,
I will said * its just an ant bite* hahaha!
this is great, a great start of a new year!

2 days before I receive red packets
*excited*
how about you? :D

2012-01-17T01:37:00.000-08:00

everything happen today involve heart!
this is also one of the reason why my daddy pass away.

I dunno weather to share this our or not but this curiosity has been with me since I discover a diary written by daddy. I start flipping through while my mum is sitting beside me, I dont dare to go far as I scared she realise so I walk off from her room. he is such a well manage man, he write his diary everyday, keeping track of everything happening.

when I close my eye, I think of you, daddy!
nobody has really tell me how you die, the details like when? where?
popo only tell me little bit details about you.
you are fierce but lovely. love your wife, love your children.
my sister, brother and even my mum has never mention you infront of me.
like what is your job before? what is your favourite food?
what sports you like? what is your hobby?
when I look through the diary , I really did shed a tear
until the date, 13th of march, 1995
after this date, it is all empty throughout the year
where have you gone? I really miss you.
I dont even have the chance to talk to you.

so silently I took the diary and read just now, nothing much, its all fill with your schedule, giving me a little hints, you are surely a busy man! I know you are quite successful in your career. But still a question, why do you left before I can talk to you?

2012-01-10T02:06:00.000-08:00

I saw this picture in facebook and it really touches my heart.

felt really sad for this baby, God he is just the innocent little baby who had just come to this world not long ago, how can you cruely take him back? The baby has not seen the world clearly yet, he has not speak his first word on earth yet. It is really heart wrenching to come across such news. If what stated in facebook was true, with every share of this picture facebook will pay 3 cent and why not do so? You might save the baby life. If it is not real, at least it tell us that there are alot more people in need of help. I am sure in this world, there are surely more similar case like this that is TRUE!

there by, please make miracle happen for this baby. He needs support financially and mentally. people, give out as much as you can. do not think that this is nothing to do with you, everything arounds us is something to do with us. your kindness will surely be appreciated! trust me, God is not blind!

people in facebook said you are dead, theres no confirmation in facebook news. if you are still with us, please be strong. I know you will survive. everyone out there are praying for you giving you the confident to fight the cancer cell away.

2012-01-10T01:42:00.000-08:00

shock over the first news I heard in school maybe still in a sleepy mode, apperantly Tse Ann has misunderstand something. very wrong girl! Nicky is not my boyfriend, we are both good friends. I'm happy to be single, surrounded by beloved friends and family although I still have a crush. haha. This is a teenage life. At a moment, felt so big in school. Every teacher came in and reminded us *we are in form 5 now* Senior year, so what? It is still an enjoyable of high school life.

I find maths is getting harder to be master. the challenge is coming, ready?

Jokes, where's the limit? you can be funny but be in a smart way. dont do something that made you look dumb.

2012-01-06T07:49:00.000-08:00

First day of school, tables and chairs are all cover with a thick layer of dust. lucky I have my cloth with me. since this is the first time after a month break from not seeing each other, of course we had our super long conversation, the endless one to catch up with all of them! you smile I smile. curriculum, interact club. Pn Muthu praising me infront of Pn. Sharon for helping her alot and run the club activity most of the time and I felt so shy. I dont really have that much project though but not to be secret, I am happy with the praise. hahaha! nobody like being step from top to bottom. I hope someone out there get what I mean.

Day 2, is the cookie monster birthday. make her a snsd birthday card, and of course I was all smile up when she look so happy with that, well felt so grateful for making others happy! this is what I aim for and so my target is achieve. had lunch with her at pitstop. highly recommended this cafe, a very nice and relaxing place and you can have fun with the games provided there. we play the stalko and each time it fall, our heart jump out. the scene was pretty amazing and will be remembered! by the way, heart attack can really happen anytime. the happiest moment will surely be attack by something. towards the end of the school, was a little bit disappointed about something.

Day 3 which means today. I really felt the tiredness after getting about 5 hours per day. was really knot down by the yawn and soon I dose off. but the half an hour sleep is not enough to kill the tiredness down. the lazy cell is out. got to catch my 10 hours of sleep since tomorrow is a saturday! nites people~

2011-12-30T08:25:00.000-08:00

are you ready for the new year?

I awaits for the arrival, coz it will be the brand new year. As I promise, it will be the brand new me. I am gonna make changes in my life. hopefully, to the better one for you. sadly, school starting soon and my die or not exam is on its way. oh man, SPM! :( I know senior year is not an easy year right?

2011-12-28T05:49:00.000-08:00

done with all the confession for this year, although it is just 3 but still a good try. maybe will start off next year with more! who knows what gonna happen in the future right? :)

my first idol from korea, Alexander! he is hot, handsome and cute still mesmerising on how great star live concert is. this year will be perfect if Tj was there. I miss them but still a perfect concert besides m-fest.

Has been a stalker since i finish up all the drama, yup stalk on my friends holiday. their holiday destination was all the places that I wish to visit. they are so many places in my mind, I wish by the time I am at my golden years, I have already steps into all the country around the world. First, to make this dream become reality I will start giving 100% in everything I do.

3 days to a brand new year, 2012. the end of the day? not so fast right? I still need to travel around the world :D

2011-12-24T01:15:00.000-08:00

confession #3

I have a crush on this guy. Not again, this is the second time . He is also the first one who I had a crush in many years back. I though the feeling will never come back but is out of my control. As I know, he is quite popular among the girls, cute guys are always surrounded by girls. I have heard alot people said for Christmas the best gift is to confess to someone you are in love with even Yan Ya Lun said so. But I guess this is not the right way for me. He might have someone else in his heart. Theres a quote *never try never know* but i dont have the braveness to know. so let me be your secret admire till one day you find it out yourself. still secretly in love with you and this is pretty fun!

2011-12-23T01:44:00.000-08:00

confession #2

I dislike my paternal grandparents very much! No matter how long the time has passed, I will never forget the things that had happen before. Time cant heal this scar. Suffocating staying with them under one roof, if I really got the chance I would very much likely to move out from here. But I will surely miss my mum very much and does not have the ability yet, so I told myself be patient and take every of their words as a touch and go in my mind.

2011-12-19T22:16:00.000-08:00

MISTAKES

day by day, we learn to grow up to be a better person. In every stage of growing we learn a lesson. Yes we did make mistake but its alright because everyone will undergo this stage. If one day you think of the mistake you have make during the past years, you will definitely laugh and ask * Why I did such cute things when I am younger *, the word cute may be in many form. For me the word cute represent the unnecessary things that I buy, the things that I have done to catch attraction of others and one thing crazy shopping! I still remember that during one of the roxy sale I spent nearly Rm300 for just 2 bag and a purse. Now I will ask, is that really worth? I guess I have got a little bit mature, at least I learn how to spend my money wisely. haha. besides that, cute action represent going all out for my favourite artist and singing aloud when the music is play even though I dont really remember the lyrics, I will just mumble and Its fun! You see I have done so many things that I, myself will laugh at it when I mesmerized everything back. I must said I am so cute here because all the mistake that I made bring laughter to the heart ♥

It`s Christmas in 5 days from now. To celebrate this festive season, I would like to do some confession in my life for the past 1 year. I will put this up as the best Christmas gift for myself.

Stay tune for more confession coming up next by Li Yueng ♥

2011-12-16T00:59:00.000-08:00

I wish I can smile like that everyday :D
keep the cheerful look that should not be taken away.

2 weeks left to be enjoy before battling under pressure again. Yes thats right, 2 weeks left and all the promise that i made seems to be floating around the air. *JANJI KOSONG* I seems not to be bother about that, but just want to continue enjoying this holiday to the fullest. everyday live like a bos.

I have spent a couple of days living in my grandparents house. main reason to take care of my cousin and to help my grandma out in making cookies. I am actually quite mad about myself, that was the place I grow up since small but how come I feel uncomfortable sleeping there. my grandma love me so much, the first night I was complaining my pillow is so hard and the next day she went to bought cotton to make me a new pillow. she make sure i had my breakfast, lunch and dinner with all my favourite food. in the other hand, my grandfather will let me control the astro channel although it is showing his favourite sport. I felt their love. they are always my guardian star, carefully looking after me. I hope you both will always by my side, take care of me like a small kids just like how you both used to when I am small. under the situation of being in love by someone is so great that is the sweetest moment in live. I hope this love will be around me all the time and never disappear.

Popo, Kongkong
I just want to let you both know, I love you both very much!

2011-12-05T22:40:00.001-08:00

Cant actually believe that I study before I go online, finally it started!

I am happy for that, but i got something happier to share

last Saturday, Mfest was my best ever concert in the year so far

I truly enjoy every moment there, the music was really powerful

I can feel my heart beating like how the music goes. haha

sitting like a bos there. I din knew that vvip seat was so great

you got a super clear vision on your idol

whatever they do you will notice it down the stage

the best part was, handshake with Danny XD

Me and Audrey went so high and we actually stand from our chair,

being notice by Danny coz we are the only one standing

he ask to go on stage and shake hand with him

this was the first time ever I have such sweet memories from a concert.

To add the sweetness into it, we got the spotlight

Tj smile and look alot at us, they notice our presence

because the others fans are very far away and yeah we are right in front of them

they wave and while singing they look to us, the best eye contact ever!

Z-Chen. a really talented singer! his song, kuai le still the hit among us!

first time seeing him in real life, he is actually quite good looking! XD

their dancing skill was superb! cross-over with move crew.

Xiaodong really have a very nice body. his dancing skill was so good, that if he is not a singer, he can be a great dancer!

he is always cheerful as he does, so cuteee!

he got a little shy after showing the skills, but dont worry, the whole MG family down the stage cheering for you both!

Gin Lee, she is pretty! but I am not really into her songs. ;)

the red hot pants wore by Gary, an attraction to every audience eye! although his voice went a little out of tune that day, but he still sings well. really thumbs up for Gary for controlling his vocal so good.

ending, only a few of the artist came out. this was the best take for the ending, Tj looking at me! :D if u notice Abin hair is such so messy and ugly! give me a scissors, let me cut for you this ugly dude.please dump your hair stylist away. I still cant imagine you showing your fans with this kind of hair style.

when it comes to the end, most of the people left before they come up the stage, lucky me and audrey stay tune and waited the concert really ended before we left. if not we will be missing out how Tj wave bye to us. when they nearly went it, I told audrey a last shout and we really did, they pause their movement and look back before entering the back stage, giving us a very sweet smile.

THIS WAS THE BEST EVER CONCERT SO FAR IN THE YEAR 2011! ♥

2011-12-04T20:40:00.001-08:00

Finally a big gathering after 4 years. and Nikol, happy sweet sixteen!

This 4 years is definitely a very long time, everyone changes!
some is hard to be recognize when I first saw them, haha.
It was such a bless that every of us can gather again
everyone has grow so tall, and the girls are prettier
it proves that 4 years is really a long time
one thing for sure that never changes, is the craziness of them
from awkward moment turn into wilds one
bbq under the rain was fun when everyone exchange laughter
we are making so much noise that equals to a wild animal forest
daniel serve as a cook, he has bbq all the chicken wings
although some is half cook, it is still eatable.
faris as the bartender, made us some good drinks
his job is far simple compare to daniel who have to stand under the rain
although the weather is not that pleasant for a bbq party
we still enjoy much of it. nothing can stop us to turn wild right? haha
the biggest sacrifice must be Hamie, the mushroom head boy
he travel all the way from Kelantan just to meet up with us
well, he is no longer being call the mushroom head boy
he is so stylist now and the mushroom head is no longer seen.
It was really a meaningful and memorable night! ♥

2011-11-30T23:30:00.001-08:00

craving for one ice-lemon tea! missing my holiday life in Hongkong although it takes me alot of walking. I have taken my feet to a distance, the journey all begin here. the first day of the very last month of the year 2011. Spm is about to end, christmas is on the way. So why am I still dregging myself around? 1000 add maths question that I promised before the holiday seems like there promise is gone no where. revision? not even a single page of it has been done. enjoying? YES, truly enjoy the whole holiday especially for the past one month. a bad sign. if this life continue without making any changes, do not hope for success to rope in to your life.

Distance? Yup, I definitely feel it. Everything changes during this holiday. I dunno why but just hope that what made me think so is WRONG!

Here I promised, from now onwards me, Li Yueng is going to work hard to achieve what ever dream that I have in my mind and get all the work started to improved my add maths, physic and all those subject that might kill my brain in the future. If you see me slacking, come up and give me a big slap so that I know what I am doing. Sometimes the temptation is just too strong to resist, I need somemone to discipline me up.

2011-11-29T18:57:00.001-08:00

A little thing that I want to share, you are the diamond of my heart!

I really want to know what`s on your mind.
It had been very hard to catch that little thinking.

Had a mini war in tuition last night, practising my lawyer skills
is a funny war instead!
the people now only see money in their eye?
their mind full of strategies of making the most money
sacrifice all your time out just to earn money, is that worth?
maybe you enjoy teaching, but dont compare the money with your work
students, seriously tuition just help you in the process of learning
it does not help you to score,your hard work matter most
i take tuition because the learning process in school was bad
it was terrible bad.
I really got a little mad for changing the time,
we din even have got the choice to choose
to be exact, had been force to take the time you were left with
please be a little more considerate to others.

2011-11-28T04:43:00.000-08:00

hello everyone, I`m back.
having lots of fun in Hongkong as well as Macau
who does not want this life right?
6 meals per day, shopping through out the trip
saw many amazing creatures, meet people around the world
by the way, i meet many handsome yet cute guys too. XD
the food was fabulous, tasty! still had the delicious food cell in my mouth
alright, the taste is still there.
the most unbelievable thing that was i actually went into a casino
neh, it just a pretty lady luck on that day
since i am in there, why not have a try? hehe
luck was just permit me for the entry but not to take something from them
so well, i finally get to see how adults gamble
win or lose that is still their favourite place after all.

dear grandma, i know i am a bad granddaughter
i could not help you in doing all the cookies that i promise before
i break it, i deserve some punishment
but u din even get mad over me, that made me really feels bad
you love me so much that even everyone can feels it
i am the apple of your eye, your precious,
you take care of me since when i am still feeding on milk powder
you are always there for me as long as i needed you
you given me so much in life that nobody can ever replace you in my heart

who is the one cooking you all your favourite dishes?
-popo

who is the one buying your favourite food, mango every weekend?
-popo

who is the one making you chicken essence when your leg cramp?
-popo

who is the one always getting the latest dvd dramas for you?
-popo

i know you have done million things just for me
everything that happening in my live involves you
in return i ask myself what can i give it to you?
when you asking for my help, theres always reason from me
i really hope that i can put everything aside,
be with you right now, and we happily making cookies like the past year
i really miss that moment very much, i would want to feel it again!

2011-11-15T22:02:00.001-08:00

genting trip was fantastically fun no matter how many times you have been there! hotel room always happen to be the problem,the spoiler of the trip. luckily, like the previous year we manage to solve it out and enjoy the whole journey of the trip. we are back with alot of sweet memories and incident include accident! the accident was? NEVER ever use the hotel cotton bud, it is made of cheap skate cotton and it stuck inside abel ears! thanks god, he is safe and sound now!

before i doze off, i always reflect back of myself and I have lots of words to said. the next morning i try to recall back all that words but fail. so i will just keep that in my mind that i have though of it before. only when i can remember everything, i will write it all out. this diary has been with me for almost 3 years. alot of happening has been file inside here. i guess when i am old one day, i will on it back and read every words that i have written in here. having a bar of chocolate in my hand, eye on the computer screen, laughing and crying at the same time reading back all my little piece of writting. sounds wonderful right?

has any movie touched your heart before? i have number of it especially when it comes to some love story, family stories or even friendship. they really act very well. i guess, i can be consider as someone who get emotional easily by anything..

2011-11-11T23:34:00.001-08:00

謝謝你們愛我的每個人
the lyrics are pretty meaningful!
i would like to thanks those who love me too :)

although i dunno how to write in mandarin
i speak with little out of tune
but i still love listening to chinese songs!
i am a banana but i just bake a chocolate banana cake today
YEAH, it is successful!
i just love how the chocolate melts in my mouth
do you get how happy am I when i bake something out and it`s delicious
the feeling of excitement's is just too powerful

the very sweet smile others put on their face after tasting my cake

its was really a touching moment, no matter it repeated how many times

seeing others giving good compliments on your hand bake cake

push me stronger and ready for more success to come after much failure

one last thing, i bake not to receive compliments

is to share happiness with the person I love and I care about!

2011-11-08T20:24:00.000-08:00

KL night view still the best scenary! lets go together next time! :)

mummy said the growing has gone smaller, everything will be alright

but i still can feel it. a round bolus and i does not feel good about it

who`s not afraid?

i go to bed every night spending 2 hours just to flash back

the first night thanks to roasted milk tea from chatime

the second night was having too long afternoon nap

what i have done in my 16 years of life and what can i do more to enrich it?

sad, sorrow, happy moments last an impression in my heart

i shall kept all those memory lock in it! :)

my life wound not end here, i see many exciting part coming in

my book of history is not even written to half of my life

there is more coming in the journey waiting for me to jot down every moment in life

Cherish every moment of things happening around

what goes around comes around!

2011-11-06T20:31:00.000-08:00

just deleted the previous post, unsatisfied with that piece!
too much personal schedule being leak out
this world is filled with predator looking for their prey
besides safety, it can exits in any form
because this world is fill people who are unpredictable
the first minute it can be close to you but for the next minute
it might hurt you!
learn to be smart maybe you can save yourself
from being exploit and hurt :)

* YOU WILL NEVER KNOW WHAT PLAYING IN THEIR MIND*

my dearest for now and always. i would just said i am one of their die hard fans! not just because of their look but their songs land a big mark on my heart.

some may think i am crazy over them, yes I do admit that because they are my idol. dont you have your own idol as well? is that really fun to criticising people? each of us has got one brain and why not use it wisely? use it before you split anything hurtful out. well all this wound not ruin my mood, is not worth at all, even thinking about it. how long can we live to? why not enjoy every moment of my life to the fullest. enjoying their performance was one great thing. talking to them was lovely. getting their precious signature was awesome. the next thing i hope that happens, that is taking picture with them, I wont faint but just smiling until i dunno wheres the camera was! hahaha. life's has been so amazing when you got a close interaction with your idol. i like them because i know they are not acting but just being true of themselves. so shall see you guys performing at m-fest! a little down because i will miss their first ever concert in our own home ground.

when it comes to dislike is because they are blinded with lots of lies. being so untrue not just to others but themselves as well. a life that fill with lies will not be respected. a life that fill with gossip will not be happy.

2011-10-31T05:47:00.000-07:00

the scenery that i will never forget!

so was that what you want?

you sure you will have no regrets?

but i think i am pretty mad of myself now.

visiting the doctor again last sunday

so this is the how many times in this month?

i am *sick* being a patient, is a terrible feeling

saying i am not worried is definitely a lie

even a tiny grow is enough to kill

so please this little tiny bolus or tissue that is growing

get rid of me quickly. you are messing up my life

you know how bad the condition will be if you does not disappear

if it is a good thing, i dont mind. if it is bad, is really bad.

i dont want such nightmare experience or i dont need it at all!

today is special, loving and fun!

it is my best friend for 10 years sweet sixteen

to my dearest suki, happy birthday :)

such a long journey that we went through

yet our friendship bond are unbreakable

i am lucky to have found this true friend in my life!

2011-10-28T20:00:00.000-07:00

triplet birthday party!
here goes to the three big bos sitting infront, HAPPY BIRTHDAY! ♥

my classmate are always like a family. they are warm and funny
theres hardly you pass the day without laughter with them
even exam is not the resistance!
although sometimes someone, they are pretty annoying,
but they still made a good day.

holidays, you are pretty bored!
it was just a week and i got really bored starring at the walls
so am i really going to rot when the 1 months+ holiday arrive?
i am pretty sure, i need a part time job to fill the over flowing time
or else my routine will just be eat, sleep, online.
have got an inflame throat, it`s hurting me badly
the only think i know when i woke up middle in the night
and my throat killing me! i try every solution to stop the pain
it isn`t helping. i manage to survive until now, is a miracle!

2011-10-20T23:58:00.000-07:00

SIXTEEN!
my teammates are awesome right? as sweet as they do, as funny as a duck.. hahaha
redeem our pizza voucher today. a mini class party perhaps?
although we din get to win, after all is the valuable experience
i realise how hard is that to make a perfect piece of magazine
many funny incident happen today
laughter fills the whole atmosphere
happy go lucky once again :)
more or less, we got a joker in the group
seriously nicholas you are the funny joker
no doubts about the ability that you have. haha

finals was officially ended on thursday. HOORAY!
no more sleeping late at night and no more waking up as early as 4.30am
no more sleepless night, no more worrying every morning before i left for school
most important, no more stress! i am stress-free now
is like a burden ease off my shoulder, it is gone!
and i am happy :D

if you wanted that, you will use whatever way to get it
if you are not interested, you can give up to thousand lies
human nature that could not be change for you!

2011-10-14T00:31:00.000-07:00

when you see things in a different way. a height that give your best satisfaction!

lets talk about my feeling for this exam
i though everything will be fine, but it is actually not
i have never had a good time during exam period
before the holiday i was very sick on the second day of exam
having fever and headache for all day long
now a day before i gonna continue to fight in it
i was once diagnose with food poisoning again.
the second time in 1 month time. crazy?
i have got really weak stomach
and the doctor said my blood pressure is low
i might FAINT anytime. i am advise to do things slowly
this is so not my style.. haha

for the first time i have sleepless night due to exam
the night before sej exam, my mind ran out of control
i am already super tired after studying till 12.30 a.m
lights off but my mind is not off
all the sejarah facts keep on reflecting on my mind
nabi muhammad, kota makah, renaissance and all the tamadun
it goes left and right and all way round my brain
i could not help to stop what i am thinking
i nearly cry which i dunno why, i just could not control
over pressure! putting too much pressure on myself.
but everything is worth my sacrifice
i got a feeling i will do well in the sejarah paper
after last night facts crossing my brain, i cross it back to the exam paper
with just 3 hours of sleep is definitely not enough
but i am not feeling tired at all
pressure causes people to stay awake, this is so true!
after the two killer paper is done, i am much relax now
physic and add maths (paper 2) was totally holly crap
i have put my best foot forward, no regrets! :)

2011-10-06T09:22:00.000-07:00

i have been very different for the past two weeks. i found out that i am not my usual self anymore. i do stuff that hurts people around me. even i cant take it anymore, can anyone tell me why? i am LOST! where can i go to look for the usual happy go lucky CHEN LI YUENG?

it has been a week of holidays and my mind is still empty. it should not be like that, isn`t it? i am not even feeling guilty. this is something wrong, i lost interest in books. i hope this serve as the reminder to me, i still got lots to study. please give me some strength! my mind should not have too much thought about you.

2011-09-29T22:16:00.000-07:00

this is so not the right time to fall sick
especially when you are sitting for your finals
but i manage to stand on and make it though before the paper ends today
never to give in so easily!
part of the strength came from my classmate
little that you know, they are really amazing
their caring and concern for others are great enough
it makes me feel so much comfort sitting around them :)

being sick is so not fun especially when it is fever
i know i should rest more but i just could not get my eye shut on the bed
seriously i am not tired at all, just my brain cell fighting with each other
and fluid coming out from my nostril. haha
hope i will be in better condition tomorrow
to really get myself ready for finals
after two warm up subject, is time to be serious!

everyone around me are getting sick lately,
hope all of you have a speedy recovery! ♥

2011-09-14T23:32:00.000-07:00

i still see lights no matter how bad the condition is! :)

no worries anymore after seeing you yesterday, phew!
your smile are really great, powerful smile you have got there
the moment when i feel like looking out
true enough, you are there. what a coincidence.
a new style? yea, you are always awesome as you do.

2011-09-09T22:33:00.001-07:00

how do good things come around?

partying till 1am last night. thina big day! he is one of my indian guy best friend, seriously he is! at first i though he was just the ordinary cool indian guy who like to disturb others. but everything proves me wrong, he is a nice guy with lots of life lecture. a funny guy as well that never fail to make others laugh. he is a very sincere friend who thinks before he speak unlike others. he know what should and what should not where he wont hurt his friend. this is what a true friend should be. as a friend, thina, pls stop your bad habit! you know what i mean that really bring hazard to your life. a big gathering at padi house, all of us enjoying every moment together. black little boy, you are officially 16! XD

but before every happiness, i will never forget about my little meimei, janice! she did not join us yerterday. i am sure all of you know the reason. she is going through a tough time in life. while we are partying, i am sure she`s at home having a deep heart, shaking, afraid and worried about today. she has to be brave to endure everything thats gonna happen. i feel so self fish for not giving you a call yesterday, i am so sorry. janice, get well soon! i am with you, we all are with you. no worries, be the superwoman, i have faith in you that you gonna pass this stage with flying colour just as you pass your exam with all A`s. YES, you can do it!

2011-08-31T05:27:00.000-07:00

10 add maths question is powerful enough to make me feel sleepy. looks like i lost the battle against myself again. everything looks so tempting except books. that's me!

only 1 week of holiday, i have been to 4 big shopping mall
time square, mid valley, sunway pyramid and klcc
money come, money go, officially pk
so expect me to be more *kiam siap* for the moment!
that sad, no more shopping. anyway, i have enough of it for this month
next target will be in my hong kong trip :)

time is running, tick tack, tick tack
i hope i does not waste anymore time
cut down the time facebook-ing, watching drama and shopping!
my concentration should be my final exam
i wanted a scholarship to study in western country
my dream, my goal, my future for the spm!!!!!

2011-08-26T05:49:00.000-07:00

august has almost come to an end, merdeka serving as the last day in the month and hari raya is just 3 days away. holiday holiday holiday! after the latest info from school, i am left with about 1 month of school, deducting the holiday during pmr and deepavali! school even ended our school life earlier in the year of 2011, a week earlier then it should be. looks fun right? but i can imagine every teacher rushing like a mad train, catching up with all the syllabus as year end test falls on October. i dunno how they going to do it, but confirm as the student we will surely be suffering from cramming everything into our brain in such a short interval of time. lets just hope everything turn fine when the time comes.

i have created a new record for my drama. finishing a 25 episode drama in just 4 days was awesome until i sacrifice my sleeping time for it. this is not crazy, ok? its always my passion catching up with all my favourite drama. hope this is the best record in my history of life, if it is more, i dare not imagine how dark my eye bag will be

the worse thing in life, running for about 50m just like being chased by a dog, just to catch the public bus. my heart straight away bump up when i saw the bus near the traffic light when i am still on my way up to the bus stop. the short journey looks like a very long journey when you are running and yet why i cant speed up and reach the destination earlier? i am getting slower and slower. lack of stamina, lack of exercise. lucky enough, i manage to catch the bus, but when i am in the bus i looks like someone who going to get a heart attack. phew, i am safe and sound now! XD

today,
went to time square with amanda and adrian today. bought a cardigan from romp, i will nvr fail to get a thing from that shop. its always my favourite fashion destination! adrian look super cool in his coat and the white leather shoe. he looks like the prince, *bak mah wong zhi*? had our lunch at kim gary, their toast, thumbs down! i can do a better peanut butter toast at home =.= later cam whore with amanda's ipad at starbucks, hehe, our all time favourite activity. you can log in to facebook and look at our *cute* little picture! :D

looking forward for more holiday to come, and enjoy it to the MAXIMUM!

2011-08-19T07:02:00.000-07:00

hey baby, you dont know! :)

oh yea, i am stress out with my accounts project. trying to get a brief of fresh air here though this is not the correct place. haha.. i always confuse myself up. i know this is call stupid, i am just not as smart as you do.

going for spy kids 4 tomorrow with audrey. i have asked her out since early in the month. this is because i dunno what to choose for a birthday present. haha.. good opportunity for her to choose it herself. since how long i have never step into the cinema? hm, is too long until i cant recall. since last year, see how long it is. this year, has been really a busy year. it not easy growing up as a teenager, but the process are enjoyable. do you enjoy every moment of your life being a teenager? YES, I DO!! :D

2011-08-13T22:19:00.000-07:00

still getting myself to school although my body is still weak. i really hate food poisoning. it has made me suffer for two days. recovering now or not i will soon to be diagnose with anorexia. i am afraid of food. i scared the moment it went through my stomach, i will start looking for toilet. haha..

the first conversation in school was all about the defect about dato lee chong wei in the just concluded world championship. it's okay with the defect but you can see millions of badminton fans are supporting you, giving our encouragement deep from our heart. i can see he does not lose in the point of skills but just luck. the army head lindan is just being a little bit lucky than him. the match was so tight that not only the player feel stress, i am sure the coaches as well. when the camera focus to the coach, i laugh, their face are pull longer than it is. the face expression was all about worries! even my whole family was panic where the shuttle will fall and how they kill it.

my grandfather has been sitting on the chair locking his eye to the tv, a very serious look.

my grandmother who usually dont speak english surprisingly said win win win.

my uncle has been shouting *kam hui ya* every time chong wei smash.

my mum, she laugh alot, there's one part chongwei perform a fantastic play by taking the shuttle that was smash by lindan in btw his leg which stunt lindan.

my sister hugging tightly to the little soft toy star, the match was seriously panicking and it produce alot of heart attack.

my brother, although he does not say anything but from his expression he is panic as well. he change his position in sitting all the time when even lindan leading the game.

as for me, i normally express it by shouting it all out. i desperately hope that lindan will make mistake in the rubber game, but he control the game well.

this is really a world class badminton match. watching it with all my beloved family member is so fantastic. the screams, the laughter are something that cannot be miss.

i actually wrote something that i dislike that has happen in this few weeks time, but i decide to backspace everything off. i hope you realise yourself of your mistake and your attitude. care for others feeling as well. sometimes, you are just too much.

2011-08-10T00:59:00.001-07:00

hypothesis of the day :

the higher your hope is, the higher disappointment you will feel.
is true enough, this happen to me. i am actually hoping at least an A- for my add maths. and it turn out to be 58. no no, i dont like this. i was hoping for a higher marks since the paper is actually consider as easy. sometimes, we just cant avoid from making mistake even though it is just a small mistake. so from now onwards, keeping a moderate hope on everything will be the best before i got hurt even more.

i dunno weather is coincidence or its all on god hand to control whats happening. when i am not really that in the mood, there will be always something to cheer me up. while browsing through the Internet, i found this nicely bake cheese tart and i am sure it will be delicious. the picture itself is already having the power of making my saliva rushing out from my mouth. i cant wait to taste this super delicious tart when i am at pavilion! it is sold in pavilion :)

sparta is going to have a t-shirt soon that mark the symbol as a spartans! :D

*together we unite, divided we fall*

2011-08-08T00:41:00.000-07:00

boom, i am here! :)

sad to said i ended my test with a very unsatisfied mood. it all went down the drain when both my imbangan duga went up into smoke. it gives me 2 very obvious different value. due to running out of time, i just try my luck to recalculate, messing up all the plus and minus and i got a number 520. no way man, i dont love you! accounts is definitely not my day today.

well nothing to worried about anymore, i am free! wakaka. while searching on some present for my friends who soon to be 16 in this month i found something where i guess girls will definitely like it. just log in to this website to grab all the free gifts they offer http://www.1000savings.com/

going to have a presentation for our moral tomorrow. it seems interesting where i am the little sibling to puiteng and guess who our mum and dad are? shh.. secret! :) it will be reveal tomorrow. hope we are success in the play tomorrow. jia you!

2011-08-05T01:34:00.000-07:00

Is August now. wow, time flies!
since school started this year, i am already in form 4 for 8 months. what have i done for the past 8 month? currently having a short test in school. a test is still a test. we must still try our best. *to put our best foot forward*,idioms with the meaning for what an exam stands for. it should be all our hard work. after this afternoon, i finally know where my physic standard has go. its definitely not the way i wanted. when it is time ups, i am still left with over 10 question blank. when i finally figure out what to do and was about to write all my answer, the test is already ended. i though this was a joke but no is, REAL! 1 hour has passed and your paper must be summit @.@ after this test, i am all ready for shopping. is too early to prepared for year end test right? haha. NO! or else you will regret.

sometimes writing on our blog are more to a reminder to ourself, self reminder! it remind me not to make the same mistake again, not to be silly anymore and most importantly the place where share my happiness and at the same time sadness. it grows up with me together :)

with lots of love, my dear friend suki!

with the brightest smile from Tj, it lights up my life. :D

2011-07-22T07:53:00.000-07:00

happy birthday aaron yap! 5 more days to go. had an early birthday celebration for him today
spartan`s night turn out to be a birthday celebration for him. i am sure the cupcakes was nice right? awesome delicious! all our hard work and effort is in the muffin. how much sweat and heat we have to go through to put the nicely bake cupcake into your lovely stomach. too bad you dont get the prank on the wasabi icing :) even the chili padi that was not spicy enough. had an awesome dinner, crab was what everyone looking forward to, especially bryan! XD

*friends are like cupcakes in my pantry of memories*

if oliver is reading this, i still owe you a present. i still cant find a nice and suitable one. sorry for delaying it again. same goes to puiteng. promise, it wont be too long. :)

20 more hours, i gonna see Tj (dong yu zhe) performing live again. very excited to meet them, i stand proud as a MG family. first, i though i wont be able to attend as i dont have a ticket. but miracle happen. this is why i always believe in miracle. it will happen to you if you are lucky. reminder, dont give up hope so fast! thanks to fans club admin, carmen i manage to attend. kok yin, this is our second concert together! i am very exciting for tomorrow concert :D

lets just look forward of what coming in to your life. accept everything around you in a big warm heart because you cant change the fact that they are that kind. you just cant change a people attitude right? accepting and being patient is the best medicine to prevent misunderstand and keep your friendship going strong. it will not be that true of yourself anymore if in front you pretend to be very close friend but when you turn back, all sort of things of dislike came out from your mouth. life is not an acting class, we life by our true heart, true feeling and true friendship.

before i forget, i remember some of you asked me why i was so cold towards my grandparents. i choose to ignore the question because i dont know what to reply. how am i going to tell you all this? tell you the way they treat me which is worse then a dog. i clearly remember thats a proves in Cantonese which related to dog, and theres one time they can even scold me with that kind of words. where i did nothing wrong at all, i eventually get scolded. if you were to ask me to describe how many conflict happen btw us, i guess one whole page of this is never enough. so do you expect what kind of attitude to give them? i cant just act like nothing has happen. be true on your life, like means like, dislike means dislike.

BE TRUE ON YOUR FEELINGS!

2011-07-10T01:14:00.001-07:00

i just cant follow the rules ;)

i have draft out my time table
and i am not suppose to be here now.
i just mess out with my time.
once i open the book, my mind fly.
i could not concentrate even for 5 minute.
oh! how terrible this student is.
after the mid year exam, it seems like the spirit to study is gone no where
monthly test is just next month. time passes so fast right?
as previously i wasted 2 weeks of my holiday,
the feeling of guilty still hunting me because
you know how bad i did for my add maths
not to said i understand nothing about bio.
how? what can i do to gain back my spirit to study? :(

2011-06-24T21:19:00.000-07:00

finally, cheer has ended.
which means no more practice, no more staying until 6pm
i will be free after school ends. but i started missing it ady
i miss the day where we had practice. i miss cheering! :(
i can proudly confirm that i have no regret of joining cheer
i realise it is so much fun and excitement although i always complain
i might consider of joining it again next year :D

hui yee, i wanted to tell you long time ago, YOU ARE HEAVY!! XD

peace ^^

split.. ngek ngek!

♥ we are family!!

i though i will get nervous while dancing in front of such a big crowd
but i does not happen, something should be happy of
i enjoy the whole section very much
although there are some technique problem, but we still manage to make it to the end
our spirit never dies, in fact it got stronger and stronger
smiling widely will not be a problem for me. i like to :)
i always believe smiling will make your life cheerful
even though under the sun, sweats are running down like a tap water
i still put a smile on my face if u realise it.. hahaha
though we dont manage to be the champion, but we still went to celebrate
i am sure everyone is proud of their performance
we dance our best out there.
eating korean bbq for the first time with all my cheer mates
there are all so cute. especially jingwen, the way she eat are like a small little kids :D
looking forward for another big celebration will all my cheer babes! ♥

2011-06-14T05:42:00.001-07:00

alright, i am so fed up with myself.
2 subject, i just needed 1 more marks to score an A+
not 1 subject but 2!! wth..
i was so pissed off with all the silly mistake that i made
i know some of you will said it is high enough
but to me the 1 marks difference affect me badly
i worked so hard for this two paper, in the end i disappoint myself
i can said i am the person who are very greedy ;)
during form 3, i dont care really care about marks
grades is the main thing i care about, A!!!
but no longer for now, marks and grades are both important
just a little different in marks, it changes your whole grade!
no more honeymoon year during form 4.

for the coming whole week, i will be busy preparing for sports
bruises are all over my body.
i hope i can survive until next thursday
please end this suffering period quickly
i know is fun in cheering but not the injury part
it hurts me badly, i sit, i walk, i run still i feel the pain
hopefully i never regret for my decision for joining :)

2011-06-08T06:49:00.000-07:00

smile :D

i have done no revision at all during this holiday
the 0nly book that i touch for this holiday is seventeen magazine
besides spending all my money off i have produce nothing good
i am a bad bad girl, feeling guilty right now!
but holiday is the only time i could catch up with all my dramas
i actually think of learning to play the piano
alot of songs floating in my mind, which one shall i start with?
until i heard the b2st fiction. i am in love with that.
this will be my first song, hope is not too hard to learn
but until today i haven even started yet, 1 word LAZY!
cheer practice is suffering, help.
the worse is the way she push people to do well is too much
cant she have a better attitude to teach in a manner way.
everytime, you expect us to follow your time
then when will you actually listen to ours?
another bitchy girl out there! sorry to use this word
but sometimes you really make me feel that you are that kind of girl!

2011-05-28T01:58:00.000-07:00

i am free,

from exam pressure
from 5 hours of sleep per day
from worrying about anything!
hahaha. i found myself got lighter
maybe because all the burden has been erased from my body
ended the last paper with a countdown
even teacher is speechless about us,
but she know that is part of our happiness.
happiness is the most important asset in our life, right?

done my first community project too, it was very successful, i give myself a double thumbs up! XD went to visit the special children home. there are really special. just most people they dont know how they actually can contribute to help them. its very easy actually, they already went hyper although you are just playing some balloon game or even musical chair. this is actually what they needed in their life, happiness! is not hard to bring a smile on their face, its all about effort and how much you can contribute to that. first i was taken aback when we first arrive, but later when i gain some confident to approach them. they will eventually get close with you. most people might just giving donation and they though they have contribute alot but donation can just help in their basic of life, physically. but not mentally! people, money cant buy happiness. from my experience and observation there, my mind was thinking how come parents can be so cruel to dump their children there. since u already decided to have a child, no matter he or she is physically or mentally ill, you should not just give your responsible to others. then what is the point you give birth to the child? is sad to see when they are all lock up in a room. when they are naughty, they got canned. but they cant control their emotional, how can you guys blame all to them? IT`S NOT FAIR! taking care of a disable child require patient, if you dont have that point then what for you take up the job. AND if you dont have a heart to play with them, you better dont go. you are just acting like a statue there and bossy around. dont think you are a high class or high profile people. you dont even have 1% of the criteria.

well, holiday has begin.
is the time for me to catch up with all the dramas
shopping and karaoke section is the one thing that cannot be left out during holidays :D

2011-05-20T08:04:00.000-07:00

oh, mummy i miss you!
i miss your presence in my life, it was so different without you.
4 more days we will reunite again! :D

talking about exam, is not something to be fancy about
it doubts your ability in the theories you have learn from the book
conclusion, exams is not my friend, add maths is not my friend,
bio is not my friend either. they are my enemies.
who knows if i got a new enemy next week, chemistry!
pray hard it does not fall to my enemy set.
here i will rather confess something, which i felt bad in doing this
i know that is so wrong, but i just done it.
bio paper is not my hard work at all.
so yea, nothing to be proud of that.

i am undergoing alot of pressure.
exam pressure the major one
when it come to the 6th days of exam
i started to felt the rest of the subject is not important
even though i knew it will determine i pass or fail my exam
i have just lost the strength to battle with it
i cant accept anymore pressure, this is too much to handle!
according to suki, girls number 1 releasing pressure is by shopping!
so we went to release our stress just now by doing some shopping
although it is just k4, but the stress really gone down the stairs.
a good sign, so i am getting ready to battle with chemistry tomorrow
wish me luck, :)

2011-05-04T01:28:00.000-07:00

whats going wrong around me?
everything were not moving smoothly at all
first i encounter a problem in my studies
now i encounter a problem with my club stuff
project are meeting the word failure most of the time

the things that i study went into my brain in the left side, but come out shortly after that through the right side. i know i got a bad memories in memorising all the facts that was created by the genius. simple because i am not a GENIUS!

i call the orphanage home last month and they ask me to get back to them this month, when i call yesterday they said they are not receiving any student visit anymore. =.= teachers are unhappy because of this and that but they are commenting too much. this cannot that cannot!! bla bla bla.

guys, any orphanage, old forks home? or any shelter home to suggest? feel free to leave a message. i urgently need the contact number! :)

2011-04-22T08:06:00.000-07:00

ready for exam? definitely not!
thanks blogger for always listening to my complain
life has been so stress this few days, and i believe
it will continue till the end of exam.

since when the number has be my enemy?
since i have a add maths friend!
since when my brain got stuck?
when i see my physic friend asking me to solve it out!
the question is hard, super hard, hard until cannot hard.
worse is, i got so many subject to cover
so many chapter to read, and add. subject, accounts
worse come to worse i will be going down the drain

I AM SO GOING TO KO FOR THIS TEST!!!

2011-04-08T07:12:00.000-07:00

a very tiring week, totally EXHAUSTED!
due to physic tuition was cancel, i am here to update my current life, it is very stress up everyday, you know? there is even time where i dont get to rest at all. homework are always not done for this week, i hope is just for this week! :) totally agree with Pn. Francis , it is not easy to be in a science class student! yup, it hold trues in me. every morning i am forcing myself to wake up, and it is hard!

but everything is worth because.. hehe!
you will know why soon ;)
from planning, to processing and finally the outcome was..
shh.. this is a secret! :D
stay tuned for more updates!
i can surely tell all of you after tomorrow.
success or failure?
with 1 people work, i cant guarantee
but when it is combined effort from 6 people
the answer will surely be SUCCESS! :D

2011-04-01T07:41:00.000-07:00

APRIL FOOL! XDi seriously like this picture very much :)

so was this the day to play a prank on people?
i guess mr. lim prank us more than everything else
200kg of newspaper, it seems alot
if everyone give their cooperation and do their part
its just a sub sub water to be reach.
i was holding on the calculator and count.
it goes + and + and +, it nearly ends.
i still cant see the figure of 200
and the last sum of kg,
i know amanda and marcus was beside me panicking,
click = and YES 200.4kg (a sign of relief)

another april fool joke,
we got a black face teacher early in the morning
i named him *hak min sen* ;)
come on is a very refreshing morning to play a trick on people
because of his presence, the mood went down and down and down

my first successful april fool prank was on amanda
haha, and i forgot who`s next, thats too many! XD
i know i am playful. hehe
she took her revenge, and i fall for it
surprisingly that thing came true. owh!!
cheer later on, i know i am bad at it
i dont have the sexy body
i dont have such flexible bone and yup, i am weak!
i join to play, and have fun, hope no regrets fill in me ;)

later on rush for accounts, i am freaking tired.
lucky during physic tuition, i never *fishing*
maybe because the jokes and laughter awake me. haha
make more noise people.
now i am really KO-ing, needed to recharge my battery
looking forward to a much more wonderful day tomorrow!

2011-03-20T07:05:00.000-07:00

yup. today is sunday! tomorrow, monday!
means school reopening tomorrow. hm..
I AM NOT READY FOR SCHOOL,
SERIOUSLY, NOT READY AT ALL!!!
i am still enjoying my holiday, too much of enjoying
not even 10% of studying, i know i am a terrible student

guess how i spend my day today?
once again, went to meet my idol at sg. wang
had a close up view with them, i am standing so near to the stage
their smile was awesome, it is still fresh in my mind
as it has just came out from the oven.
supporting them means spending money
yup, i brought the dvd + cd which cost me 100 bucks for both
now i have to find time to get the 20 episode drama done!
while the activity almost end, i receive a message from amanda,
saying Mr. Veejay passed away due to liver cancer.
definitely a shock news not only to me but every sentosarian!
he is well known because he is a great joker
without him in the school, without him teaching history
i can imagine how boring school life is and
how bored history subject will be.
although i am not one of his student, it was his joke that make me knew him.
may you REST IN PEACE, funny teacher.

2011-03-16T07:41:00.000-07:00

i just did a very big mistake, by forgetting about sophia until i saw her name through the c-box, awh! darling, i am so sorry. so this entire post is all for you!

you are an awesome friend who keep your words. you will always be there for me when i encounter a problem, and i do know u pray for me often! although we cant meet each other everyday now but i am sure this will not make any change to our friendship! you are still the sophia that i meet since the first day. a caring and loyal friend! :)

2011-03-15T06:26:00.000-07:00

hey people! i am back from the camp.
the camp that has a big impact on me
i enjoy everything there except for the food
the breakfast was the worst of all.
since the camp was so fun, i decide to share it out ;)

on the first day, all of us are going to VI by train. bala said i am smart. i brought the correct bag (trolley bag) XD i pull all the way while others carry all the way

kavi : your bag very noisy
me : your bag very heavy!!
get the joke? hm :D

same bus with vi guys, unexpectedly i meet Erwin
i am wondering why this guy name like heard before
until he came to me and ask me

Erwin : are you chen li yueng from sk salak south?
Me : .. how u know me? do i know you?
Erwin : its me lah!

omg, i recall back everything. he is my standard 1 best friend but just for a year and then he transfer to another school. exactly 10 years and he still remember about me. oh, such a good friend! he added, i remember btw me, him and tan kim seang, we are always fighting for number 1,2,3 position is class! ;)

interactor`s from vi rocks! they can really bring the mood in the bus high. when other bus overtake us, we can see that they either sleeping or sitting down quietly. one of the vi guy said, tengok bus sebelah, boringnya! we are the first bus to arrive. after lunch there were talk about the earth. people do u know we have only one home? the only planet we can survive? why are you all destroying it? so, start making a change! later was jungle tracking. it was fun. the first time i going deep into the jungle. dinner was hm, let just forget about the food! the first night was filled with happiness. games start the ball rolling. the last part was to sing our heart out. as everyone know, japan was just hit by tsunami. by singing this song with lights off and only candle on my hand, i hope to bring my love and caring to everyone! *we are the world* when i was about to make a wish and blow the candle, lee (i think is him) came and blow my candle off. owh, my wish!!! soon we are off to bed.

second day, the breakfast, taste of a burn smell! i saw most of them are throwing it, so i do follow. yea i know i will be lecture by sukkyi of the Africa story, but sorry to said she throw it away too. haha. later we were ask to go to groups according to our post and there i start learning how to carry out my job. i like my post, i can finally help all the needy children that need our attention alot. first community service will surely be visiting to the orphanage. let just know something more about me, i love playing with children! :D finally, the award presentation. bala ask us not to expect any award because overall our school is not that good. surprise always came out unexpectedly right? we won an award! is all joanne hard work and effort . see everything pay off here :) after lunch was mind working games. our first task is so hard to clear, in the end got penalty for 5 minutes! running around the campsite help to burn out the calorie. XD my group, H for horny haha, got the 4th place. not bad, we done a good job! later at night was talks and performance. the first performance was waka-waka dance and they really success of bringing the mood to the max. before ending the night, we sang we are the world once again. people from japan needs our support! it is a reminder to all of us, we are the only one who can make a better change! i sincerely hope every havoc that happening around end quickly. since is our last night together, do not miss out the fun. midnight party! yahoo.. girls, you guys rock!! -clap-

last day, we were suppose to had our breakfast at 7.30am but i only woke up at that time. i accidentally off my alarm at 6.30 and i am doze off. the most comfortable sleep during the camp. once again breakfast sucks! sorry to have wasted it another time. listening to the talk was boring. sometimes, if u are giving a talk please make it interesting. i nearly fall asleep. lunch at an old forks home with popo. you know what, the popo told us that she has no relative. her mum was killed during the war. and i can sense that she felt lonely. people, appreciate your family member! i can really get along talking to her. he was right, popo you just have to live happily and enjoy your life as much as possible, do not think too much! i vowed to go back to the place and visit her when i got my driving license :) soon, we reached vi and we are home sweet home!

2011-03-09T01:32:00.000-08:00

i delayed this post for a few days, and now i finally got the time to write it out! i am writing with my heart now, every single words came out deep from my heart! it might be long because i have lots to said. sometimes i just dont have the courage to talk direct to you, so writing it out was the best way to tell you how much i care about you guys!

u guys gave me an unforgettable 16th birthday! you guys are just too great! i am grateful to god that let me meet a bunch of good good friends! without you guys, where do the happiness came from?

i will always remember my 16th birthday celebration, the memories is locked deep in my brain! :)

venue : fusion heaven. we occupied nearly half of the cafe. thumbs up for the food, and their super friendly bos! he is just too great, that does not mind how noisy our group and how crazy we were! clap, clap more more, --stop--

sharing the same birthday month with a week of distance. do you actually know that you are really a good guy so far i meet in my life? :D to every of us, you are the big brother and some even call you as daddy! you are the most mature among the guys. see, how deep your impression to others and me. well of course is just as a friend!

okay suki can u recall back when we meet for the very first time, what are our first words? 10 years of friendship, wow! you are the one i share most of my story with, my good listener and always shows me the way out when i am lost! i know sometimes we are disagree with each other over certain stuff, but the solution is always there. because i can feel how much we care for each other! together in future i am sure we will build a stronger friendship!

oh my dear darling amanda! u know u make such a good friend, although i only knew you for about 2 years but you left a deep impression at my heart, a girl who are very generous and willing to help others whenever they are encounter with a problem. is not easy to find such a friend like you, because u are the only one!

the party organiser. the party that has been so successful have to thx to this two pretty girl! dont need me to said, i am sure you both know how much i love you two! ^^

janice, my piller of strength! you are an awesome friends, who always encourage me whenever i fell down. the love you gives to others are really true from your heart. helping me and other as you always do. without you, i will have no such nice and creative cards! if without all your encouragement, i might have fall and lost my direction of life.

cn - the camera shy girl. is hard to find nice picture btw us. u always escape the shot! you are the very cute friend i have meet. the way you sleep are really cute, piggy ann! XD you are an honest friend, thats make me feel very comfortable with you!

kavitra - the black colour hamster, thats our symbol of communication. you are the funny friend. you are good in everything as a friend except some patient, haha! you are a good joker, which day in my life wheres kavi is around that i am not laughing? i cant find even one day!

puiteng - i know this year you cant attend any of the birthday celebration, but i am sure u are always with us. i still remember how childish we were when we fight over a small matter during form 2. i sincerely said, i am lucky to have you as my friend!

adrian, sometimes you look fierce, seriously i got a time that i was afraid of you. haha. but i found the cutest part of you, your *kuat kuat smile* your smile was really energetic! you are a caring friend too!

miing pin, in physical you look cool, but actually u are the funniest among all. every single joke that you make has got the effect of making people laugh. in class, i always heard you laughter. i have to admit, you bring happiness to everyone!

karhui - you are a loyal friend! although we are in different class now but you are still the karhui i meet 2 years ago! you like to play, but u know where the limits stand.

aaron yap - the only thing i can said describe you is funny! you and mp made a great partnership of making jokes!

bryan - you are funny!

marcus - although i just knew you this year, but i know you are a great friend. willing to help others.

able - although i din get to know you well yet, i am sure you are a good friend too!

oliver - you help me a lot for during chemistry lesson! haha. but i know you are a true friend!

chee weng - another funny member in the house

sorry if i have left any of you out! i am in a rush of writing this. but i still got alot to tell you guys. so i will write more whenever i am free! :D

2011-03-04T06:45:00.000-08:00

when people start counting, it creates problem
no matter calculation in any form
add maths, physic or even in your daily life
so come on ppl, be in this civilization trend
stop all the calculation, and move on! :)

a smile on your face make your day even more meaningful,
so ppl, smile :D

2011-03-03T07:23:00.000-08:00

3 of March,

fall sick last night, and slept for more than 10 hours. proves that medicine are made to be sleepy! this morning still sick, until i forget it was anzhe birthday today! :D

Anzhe, happy birthday! you are officially 20! dai gou zhai jor, wish you have a successful achievement in your career.

2 more days, :D our birthday are just 2 days apart. so close yet so far. XD

2011-02-26T07:35:00.000-08:00

have i made mistake? is that really not worth that much?
rm200 just for a running shoe? oh gosh liyueng!
where did u put your brain at that time?
or your eye are just attracted by the brand?
janice has reminded me rm50 can get ady, but..
dont ask me why i choose that, coz i dont have the answer either!
of cause is comfortable but the way the money spent not comfortable
you know why i regret now? coz i saw one nicer pair online
i guess i make a wrong decision this time
shall spend the money in other wiser way!

the only way i can replace my this big stupid mistake is to make sure i have this nike sport shoe with me until i turn 20! hope comfort of the shoe beats everything else!

promise is made by liyueng at 11.40pm! :)
i know i am materialistic!

2011-02-22T04:17:00.000-08:00

never regret of joining cheer although it hurts alot with all the falls and muscle aches! its fun and i am only enjoying it when i din hurt myself :) who will enjoy it when the pains is there haha.
exam`s over, worries begin! will i fail for add maths my first question. u know how bad i did for that paper. and what is the point of getting A for bio, = nothing! >.< but unexpectedly i scored A- for my physic. wahahaha,my first though was out of the 20 people, i am one of them! found another genius in the class, marcus lee who is 1 class above many of us! anyone disagree? :D

just came back from cheers practise, and yea the fall are really pain. there are too much nerve in my buttocks. or i can said not enough fats to resist the impact! hit my head on the wall for twice today. dont be surprise if i dont remember who are you tomorrow as i said to Amanda.. hahaha. whats coming up next? study? oh come on, another week of freedom before i really get back to my best friend, book! :D now is the time for drama, highly recommended,我和我的兄弟~恩!

2011-02-12T02:27:00.001-08:00

Heres a reminder to yourself!
test is on monday, so what are u doing here?
dont go and take your exam without anything on your mind
or else u will see lots of x sign in your test paper
i know u would not want that, so shooooo
go to the right table and start your revision! :D

2011-02-08T00:15:00.000-08:00

happy bunny year! XD or suppose to be happy rabbit year?
i enjoy this year chinese new year alot
i enjoy spending my time with my loves one
all my cousins and family members are greats
they brought lots of joy and happiness to me.
gambling, chatting and lots more fun! :)

in fact is the time to enjoy is not enough.just 4 days of chinese new year and i have to go back to my daily routine, thats not fair! so i have make myself another day of holiday yesterday to catch up with the loads of homework that have not been touch at all. hehe. good girl le? take one day off from school to complete the homework. XD

look at the way jamie stand, ada gaya! hahaha
with ah por! ^.^

my sweetheart! ♥

today school was bored, tired and sleepy!
simply because i am still in the mood of cny
i still wish to receive more red packets. XD
before it ends, at least let me to gamble one more time
hahaha. i am not addicted but wish to play for one more time!
need to save some money for dong yu zhe coming up album!

2011-02-01T06:22:00.000-08:00

hehe.. DIY!

today is so not my day!
1. unable to wash the car porch thx to the smart auto gate
2. broke the mixer when halfway beating on the butter
3. accidentally pour the flour out of the container
4. the gastric is with me till now!

pls send an angel and help me if you saw this
dreaming of meeting an angel was always my wish! XD
chinese new year eve is arriving tomorrow,
what are u guys going to do? :D

2011-01-30T19:21:00.000-08:00

dear diary, guess what i have done during the weekend?

janice do u know jogging is the best time i can tell you everything?
so date me out for more jogging activities
you can understand ppl well, thats why i love you darling!

amanda, u are the funniest friend i have got
u can make jokes at any time, thats the special part of you
u are the first girl who go to the saloon with me for rebonding!

hope you understand my weekend activities! :)

2011-01-15T21:20:00.000-08:00

i came across a sad story once again
last year was sharon
this time is about Bryan Chiel Yee Hao
the article about him in the star caught my attention
the first thing that cause my eyesight was his picture
pretty handsome guy, with his cheerful face
the second thing, about his mum wrote a letter to him
there is 1 sentence, my son who will be leaving the nest a day from now to a faraway land
what i tough at first that bryan is going to study oversea, his mum misses him alot
the mum repeatedly wrote the word thank you.. when i read till the end
my tears flow. i though it should be a happy story but din expect it turn out this way
i got what it mean by the sentence now.
bryan passed away in a road accident on sept, 28 in United State.

he was just a 20 years old boy, who was a brilliant student as well
i went to search for his news on the web, and found out even more
he was just to achieve his dream for studying in us
and now gods has directed him for another pathway of life
why are u so cruel to take away such a young boy?
he was just about to realise his dream, and now he is gone.
according to all his friend, he is a very nice guy, a nice friend
his presence has inspired most of them and now includes me!

death can be so close, and unpredictable
start to cherish everyone in your life now
you will never know what happen next

r.i.p bryan!

2011-01-14T07:52:00.000-08:00

staying on a cheerful mood was always my dream,
but how long i can last?

finally my long long wait drama was release recently
a week ago to be exact - i, my brother @ me and my brother, en
guess who is the main cast member? haha
if you know me well, u will definitely know them!

form 4 life was really no more honeymoon year
i have to stay in school for a longer time compare to the previous year
dislike it, it is so tiring! reach home, snore like a pig!
homeworks are left untouched till the last minute
i am still in a mess of all this, shortage of time is the main reason
because i am not willing to sacrifice my sleeping time, XD
recently, i found myself so lost, no direction of life?
what am i doing?

2011-01-04T02:41:00.000-08:00

2010 is gone, here comes the new chapter, new life, new year, beginning of the year 2011, rabbit year? ;)

my first day of the year is just unforgettable!
attended tj dou mou mou promo tour at sg wang
an zhe has been so skinny compare to last time when i saw him
both of their smile is just so sweet. guess what?
my first present of the year 2011 comes from both of them
an zhe place 2 lollipop onto my palm
imagine getting my first present of the year from him
is like hitting the jackpot of 1 million dollar! XD
*picture will be uploaded soon*

***

i am wet from head to toe for the first day of school
the rain is so heavy and i dont have an umbrella!
hot water bath after soaking in the rain for half an hour was the best bath ever!

lets see whats going to happen next in my form 4 life.
promise to update more if i got my new comp :)

2010-12-28T04:20:00.000-08:00

oh no, my hair looks terrible!

Christmas is over, boxing day is over. mind me for the late update people. i cant connect to this social site, my comp broke down and u know my bro is stingy enough to lend me his laptop. mummy, pls get me a new comp soon. i have got a list of drama in my mind now. i cant wait to watch it anymore. Dear santa, i dont need a gift from you but i want you to realise my this little wish! TQ

***

PMR result, truly i hate my result. to others i might have done good in it. but thats not what i wanted. i know u know it, janice. what i expect and how disappointed i am when i saw the slip. my sis said i will follow my brother result everytime, upsr same, pmr same so will spm be the same? if it is tue. i already know my result : 9A`s.. hahaha lucky to have a bunch of good buddies. they are like having the power to make everyone smile and be cheerful back. u know, i love you guys!

the next thing that i dont expect is, with this result i got quite a number of reward. i know i got a lovely mum who responded *very good* to my result, sister that can talk on anything and everything, brother who is kind enough to treat me a western food dinner, popo and kong kong who love me till the max. and her not to be left out. give me some time, i will try my best to be a good grandchild to her. imagine how touch i am when i goes through all this.

2010-12-21T04:27:00.000-08:00

time pass, and here i have to face it
result coming out this thursday
yea, its just 2 days away
ready or not?

my first time attending a concert and it turns out to be a great one
i got to meet dong yu zhe! XD
as usual an zhe is handsome, xiaodong is cute!!
out of my expectation, i join their fans club
n i got thier fans club t-shirt which cost me rm35
alright the prise is not a matter, as i wan it long time ago!
are you both believing in miracle?
if it really does exits, pls make it miracle for my result!

p.s : daddy, you know what i want right?

2010-12-13T04:26:00.000-08:00

conclusion : a very rushing day for yesterday
helping my grandma to make cookie in the morning
this is the best time where i can tell her everything
share all my things with her and
she told me something about the pass too.

after completing my duty for helping her
i have to rush home to go to mv
wow is really rushing lucky theres no heavy traffic
the only thing that is have to wait for the bus quite long
and the stupid bus driver attitude.
every of us have *maruah*
although he is a foreigner, u should not have scold him so loud
whats more when it is infront of so many malaysian.

reach there quite late which means shopping time has been shorter
so i walk quite fast actually, too save some time. XD
saw my cousin and aunty at romp
they said they help me paid the bill
but is just too bad, i haven try the clothes yet
and they have to go. its just too bad :(
pay for your own LY!
final discussion, we finally bought sophia a present
*Jesus loves you* if i not mistake?
we love you too!
i saw one very nice handbag from roxy
its a bit pricey but i like it
so tse ann, i need to make an appointment with you
lets go shopping! another round for me.. hehe

we got stuck on the way to her house
we are lost! theres no signboard showing the direction
after spending about half an hour searching and all the callings
we finally reach! her house is quite big
i praised her mum seriously, her mum is the designer of the house
and she is so pro!
well i like the most is the cupboard keyboard and the unique coffee table
not to left out, her mum has a chat with us
eventually we are in every topic that comes to our mind
you will never know what it really is
until you experience it yourself
i enjoy talking to her mum! :)
i mark it on my mind aunty, that you said you will consider of helping me to design my house when i get married. hahahahaha

to the end of the day, i am tired but i enjoy very much
thank you my friends! ♥

2010-12-10T22:17:00.001-08:00

hi bloggie, i am here to update u again
dont worry i have never forgotten about you
i am just busy and having connection problem

working time :)

mark pop up a question, 12tonne of metals or 12 tones of paper is heavier? me and kok yin fell to the trap. we said *metal* lucky chee meng is smart! she said, *both is the same lah wei* and then everyone in the office laugh..

we got another chance

questione number 2 : mat salleh or kui lou is smarter?

well, very obvious both are just the same. mat salleh = kui lou! hehe, we din fall into the trick!

mark is always so funny! although he is the director, he dont have the bossy look. i guess everyone in the office likes him. he is just too friendly! haha

later Adilah said *Mark, why do you like to disturbs the girls?* and he replied *theres no boys in the office for me* with his cute expression on his face! i cant stop myself from laughing. he is so cute in that look! XD

***

dont expect me to look after you, u know i wont! although it seems bad, but i just dont have that feel to do so! as sukkyi said maybe i am traumatised by her treatment last time. perhaps, YES.

***

my latest update, i am now at my grandma house here! very happy! i can watch tv unlimited, can eat nice food here and the most important is to get to be with my grandparents! i ♥ them so much! if i can drive next time, i will surely bring them out. turn me to 17 quick! haha..
but i shall enjoy sweet 16 first! ♥♥♥

2010-12-04T05:22:00.000-08:00

i receive two very shocking news today
and it freak me out!
first news i am very happy and delighted to see that,
i won x4 feel good zone ticket to star live concert
i jump up in the air when i first saw that, crazy ppl like me :)
there is no words to describe how i feel at that time. oh my.
i din know that i can win where so many ppl taking part
i am very happy for being so lucky XD

the second one, i dont have that really happy feeling
although it is a good news.
i know i am very bad of being this way
but when i think back for what happen before
the way she treat me and some kind..
the words she speaks out from her mouth
i still cant take it, anggap i kecil hati bah!

2010-12-02T05:02:00.000-08:00

i wish i can jot down everything that walk in into my life ;)
being really really busy this few weeks
and i started my work yesterday at AG company
besides salary from the part-timer job
i earn something as well, my typing skill has increase! XD
i have to type at least 300 name card per day.
i din manage to finish on the first day
but today ngam ngam kau tim at 5pm!

while i am busy typing all those incredible and fancy names
i receive a message from audrey
saying "faster buy this month epop"
and u know why? got anzhe big poster inside!! wow!
i smile greatly at that moment i read the message
until chin who is sitting beside me have a weird look at me.
okay i better continue with my typing before he speak and ask why
i rush to buy the magazine during lunch time, yea i got it!

i cant stop myself starring at this poster ♥ i wish i can frame it up! he is so adorable!

a million thanks to kok yin and audrey! you both have my heart, cantonese *chan hai you ngo sam* i love that notebook lots! and ♥ you both a billions!

30th Novemeber 2010! another impressive day to remember!
went to Neway for karaoke. it is always fun with you guys
i cant stop myself from laughing throughout the day
how can i stop, when there always funny funny action
where else i can find such funny and can get together very well punya friend?
the answer is no where! because i already found :)

more picture can be found at Facebook, here are some random one i pick.

see, their funny acts! XD

you all mean so much to me ;)

2010-11-21T20:44:00.000-08:00

I LOVE ALL OF YOU! :D

lets talk about badminton
watching badminton is so much fun
whats more when i am watching with my grandparents
we are like shouting and clapping our hand throughout the match
its so excited! especially watching my favourite pair in action
they are so cool, handsome yet muscular.. haha
the way they play are really adorable
not only the player got panic, even myself does
the shuttle was so fast for the mens double!
i though koo and tan is going to win at first
but din know that indo pair fight back
leading the game does not means winning
learn something new!
anyway, still an exciting match
which bring me go high all the time :)

wow!! really wow this time!
celine manage to get 10 ticket for the award
when i read audrey message, i got over excited
hitting the table non-stop, i know silly action
but i am too happy, 1 more step will be crazy XD
dong yu zhe here i come.

1 word, 1 life, 1 happiness!

2010-11-17T19:55:00.001-08:00

oh gosh! nightmare! the worse nightmare that i ever had. it woke me up and i can feel my heart beating very fast. perhaps, it should be super fast! this is special, i can remember every single detail in that nightmare for the first time. for the first time you know? i can recall back everything. what a nightmare! well the story is like this, it started with pmr, bm karangan paper which is the paper i did the worse in my real pmr examination! i was sitting on a chair, the pen is on my hand, and i started answering the paper. chee meng is sitting right beside me while suki is infront of me. suki finish her paper very fast and then left me and chee meng behind. she even walk around to help us, and our class teacher are looking at her but she just ignore and continue helping us to give us hint and important points. beraninya kawanku! everyone went out early and left me and cheemeng sweating tremendously and suki watching over us. the time left about 15 minutes and i haven even touch my karangan which gives me 40 marks, when i heard that, i was shock for a moment and chee meng yell at me, *hoi, faster write karangan now FASTER* then i quickly pick up the pen and write, the tittle was cara-cara untuk berjaya dalam peperikasaan. i pointed out all the content and theres go my starting, i was stuck at that very first part of my karangan, and start to panic, is impossible that i can finish the karangan on time, what am i going to do? chee meng shout at me again and said *JUST WRITE* in the end i wrote nothing, and is empty for that whole part. and then times up! from that point of view, i saw many of them walk pass our class with their smiley face. tears then started to flow down my check non-stop and so do cm, we are unable to complete our karangan paper! n soon i was awake, what is this? why am i dreaming about this i ask myself. OMG!!!!!!!

is this nightmare trying to tell me something?
the chances to get A for bm is gone?
i got a feeling it is true
this is the first time i can recall back the nightmare
with every single detail still fresh in my mind!
when i flip through the calender
it is almost 1 month before i get the real result
i hope that this dream is not true pls! :(

2010-11-17T04:33:00.000-08:00

no matter how dark it is, how hard to pass through difficulties, theres always light that brighten the way and help us go through everything.

this morning i was so blur, i woke up the last in the house
then i walk to my mum`s room and ask her,
why do you wake up so early? its holiday wei!
silly question i asked, then had my breakfast and everything
what should i do today, i pop out?
since is a holiday, lets go for shopping!
mum wanted to buy stuff for the house
so we went to the furniture shop at puchong
the furniture shop is still quite new, its kinda like ikea
many stuff inside but not practical
some look very nice and attractive but thats not the style
3 floor, and it took us less then 1 hour finish walking
and then we are off from that building.

next, ioi mall!
bump into audrey and nikol
audrey said, orh tak ajak lah..
isn`t that suppose to be my question! LOL
wanted to buy a black jacket from giordano
haiz, mum said i had enough =.=
i really like that!

p.s : waiting for the jacket to be drop from the sky! awesome! XD

2010-11-15T04:43:00.001-08:00

i hate myself at that time being! why cant i calm down?
anyway, forget about it! LY, dont remember any of this unhappy incident
just let it be, and hopping for a better tomorrow :)

haha, quite happy today
shopping are always girls favourite!
at least i din waste my day today
waste money got la.. haha
but how about tomorrow?
nobody knows what will happen next

2010-11-09T23:14:00.000-08:00

girls bestfriend! :)

i am back......
finally i feel like writing, yea! due to some reason
i found a little happiness in school for this few days
i really enjoy the moment playing cards with you all
laughter is the best gift ever from u all
can we all stay in this forever.. <3

i see through many things
there is alot of things we should cherish of
our life definitely!
life still goes on no matter what happen
i know i have been putting up bad attitude for the pass few days
sorry guys, its because i hate to be in that situation
it hurts sometimes,
perhaps, i am just too sensitive!

friends are special gift from god
without them, your life wont be complete!
i know i found true friends, yup its you guys!
i have never regret of bumping into you all
from stranger we turn into close friend
maybe sometimes i din said it out,
done some stuff that might hurt you all
although i sometimes talk bad.. hm haha!
but all this silly, inmature thinking are gone!
i am glad i have grown up :)
most importantly,
i love you guys!

2010-11-06T05:42:00.000-07:00

i felt like the world is turning upside down
hm, perhaps choose to walk away for awhile is a good thing
bye bye people! :D

2010-10-20T01:55:00.000-07:00

please do not laugh! wahahahahahahaha XD

dear diary, here i go again! review the day of my life
1 word : disappointed!
why must the interview for the scholarship be on the day where i am not around
half of my hope for studying in Singapore crush out! :(
last night, i spent almost 1 hour on the depression book
i feel sad for this girl, since she is a top student, excel in everything
how come her life can be upside down?
if i am her, i surely lost during the battle
i like her determination! most importantly, i learn something new again
behind everything there will surely be something supporting you
supplying you the courage, and to show you the way to get out of darkness
this look pretty awesome, but is true!
so have you found the person that suits this characteristic?

recognise your teacher activity started the ball rolling. the hardest part was the car number plate. normally we see the car but who will recognise the number plate? it certainly remind me about how i kick the ball to hit the gold, haha which break the number plate of the little red keliza! it became a line and finally the perspek break into 2 piece! people around me that time know how i feel. XD ended the game with me putting a fake signature for one of the teacher! ngek ngek!!!

then, me and amanda has been appointed as the camerawoman! it looks fun taking picture around, but most of them are camera shy. maybe they dont wish to be recognise in the magazine. haha! though of taking part in the carrom, but seems how it is a mess! the system are not working well =.= , money fly away! according to kavi, at least we got the nasi lemak as a consolation price.

treasure hunt next! following the team behind to take their picture. although i am not in the game, but when you are following them to take their expression, i seems like i am in the game playing along too. give them quite alot of hint and clue, as amanda said macam yes je! actually i not very sure also.. haha but everytime tembak also correct! XD

2010-10-13T03:26:00.000-07:00

this stacks of book give me a big headache. what should i do with this?

Oh no, form 4 books start to fill up the shelf!

13-10-2010
this day is really special to me
i found back the truly happiness as a student
i have long time never experience that before
until today, we all sit down forming a circle
and start to play *batu seremban*
since std.6 i din play but this game still brings alot of happiness
its all hard to explain how i feel during that time
i am really really really happy! :D
it makes me think back the past
Ain, my bestfriend during primary 1,2,3 who tough me how to play
since then, when i force to transfer from my current school
i din get to meet her until today! i have also lost contact with her
how sad! but our friendship will never die
it still remain deep in my heart, my dear friend!
while waiting for my upsr result, once again i was introduce to this game
batu seremban really recorded alot of happiness in my life! :)

last but no least, thx CN for becoming the source of happiness!
she is funny! suki and kavi too, u guys are great!

2010-10-07T03:01:00.000-07:00

the second last day before pmr come to an end
but i think for some of them, its like a gone case
maybe they are master in maths and kh..
but i definitely not that person, orh how sad?
no confident, lost hope, gone dream!

till now the question still appears in my mind
weather did i circle till 60 on my geo paper?
did i accidentally skip? what should i do if i did?
my result might be fail? huh, it left a big question mark to me
all of them has been telling my, it wont happen
is impossible i will left out one
but i got a feeling it really happen on me this time!
so dont be surprise if i dont pass my geography

everything gone!

2010-09-13T23:12:00.000-07:00

they are some technical problem at the engine
it pause all the time. haha

audrey came to my house early in the morning
so we started our day with accounts
at least somebody teman me study, no lonely feeling :)
then later nikol join us at carrefour for lunch
imagine this audrey, in her tiny size
she can eat, a lunch set from mcd
a bowl of tong yuen and also waffle
the tiny little audrey can consume that much of food
during tuition,about 2 hours later, she complain of hungry
its a nightmare for us all!
coz she can do alot of unexpected things when she is hungry
nvm audrey, your food is = nicky
he smells good right? hahahahaha
during science, i ask a bad word question!
it was an accident

me : teacher, whats the another name for thermonuclear reaction?
teacher : nuclear fusion
me : how to spell fusion? fu?
audrey : omg liyueng, what have you said?
me : omg omg.. no i was just asking for the spelling. not bad words. that moment even myself got terrify

in the end, everyone laugh XD especially audrey

me : i am confused btw the fusion and fission mah! haiz.(makes the laughter louder)

during maths tuition, more interesting
alot of interesting topic for the one an a half hour
hey everyone, what did u smell?
the question number 12?
the p issue?
nicky`s strong shampoo smell and his dog chain?
i think all of us laugh and crap more then we concentrate on the paper

p/s : tuition are always fill with laughter with this bunch of crazy people around! XD

2010-09-11T07:18:00.001-07:00

finally engine started, FINALLY!!!
glad to see that chen li yueng has started doing something right :)
after a long break, i guess the energy is already fully recharge
hope my brain wont be running slow due to not touching the books for a week

a person should not be studying 24 hours right?
not even 12 hours a day!
so sure got time to slack and relaxed
call for a stop and make my way to mv
the mall is so crowded, we took nearly half an hour to look for a parking
worse is the lift break down. our car was park at p4
climb all the way up the flight of stairs
and there are actually ppl trap inside the lift
i wonder how would it be when u are in the lift with such situation
i wanna give a try.. XD
had dinner at zammai sushi, sushi are always delicious!

a new discovery! computer and tv produces a magnetic force..haha
both of this will make us stick to them for hours and hours
is a non-stop attraction. :)

2010-09-09T03:36:00.000-07:00

once again lifeless day
did nothing for the whole day
i know i must not waste my time in that way
but still if u give me a book, i will easily fall asleep
opps sorry for suki, today ffk u tim!
i am suppose to find the pass year paper in the net
but looks like once i ever on fb, i have forgotten everything
now even youtube is very tempting.. arg!
i guess tuition is the only 2 hours that i study
see, now is time for movie!
tadaa...

2010-09-04T22:06:00.000-07:00

i love todays weather
just nice to start the day with a smile :)
since my sis is back, woke up pretty early in the morning
have dimsum with family. its like a reunion breakfast
after this, going to have dinner again
seems like when my sis is back, good food just drop by everyday in my stomach. yum yum!!
so another day wasted. i wonder when should i start studying?
i am just not in that mood yet. definately, wrong channel
perhaps, another week of holiday?

2010-09-03T02:35:00.000-07:00

yesterday, hm really is kind of sad
for the very first time i score with such marks
but just i tear it all into pieces
because of you two!
for that moment i got really angry
i even hate you both!
but until today the hater feeling was gone
which i dunno why. LOL
maybe you two are really a good friend :)
but pls sometimes think before u speak
it really hurts all the time!

last day of school
cant believe i actually make myself presence
maybe i will be more bored staying at home
n i actually cant believe kavi is there too
i though my eye is still not open completely
but not, she is really there.. haha
you guys ah!! very naughty. nvr come also nvr inform her
but is fun when she is looking for the answer
just before she circle it, i already done it! XD
our bm teacher treat us raya biscuit where pengetua make it for her
is really yummy! 1 is enough, so kavi dont be greedy! XD
class position is out, i score 7A`s.. hehehehe
overall satisfied! :)

hm i guess suki must be waiting at pasar malam now
bye!

2010-08-27T02:31:00.000-07:00

lets see how awesome is my life today
after a long break from updating!
good news! yay

today is the only day i wake up without worry
i dont need to worry how to face the exam paper
what should i do if i dont know how to answer
its definitely a good feel! :)
besides that, everything going very smooth for me today
i just like todays so much, dunno why
although some of my friends are really in a bad mood
cheer up darling, god is always there for u
u will get a solution
n is sad to see you guys arguing
all friend friend mah.. okay?
no ideal i went hyper today
did something bad too, which is hiding miing pin precious bottle
see both me and amanda are so smart. haha
make you find the whole class also cant find
the most impossible one, is the most possible
conclusion, nothing is impossible. XD
got back some exam marks also
hm.. 1 word satisfied!
although bi is quite of disappointing
got a piece of good news from puiteng too
trilling excited, this is really what hard works pay off
but i cant 100% prove it is true yet
hm later hei mong ai tai, sek mong ai tai.. then worse
i found something new in my life
i hope to keep this positive thinking
i too realise dunno since when, everyday i laugh my life out
i just love smiling and laughing like nobody business
such a happy life!
darling you can get one of it too
special dedicated to both my friend, amanda and puiteng
think on the positive way,
n soon everything will go smooth for both of you!

lastly, HAPPY BIRTHDAY SOPHIA
you are officially 15 now
which means you are now sweet 15
enjoy! :)

2010-07-24T07:39:00.000-07:00

yesterday was happy yet tired..
for the whole pameran, i only enjoy watching the performance.. haha
kavitra pak is a nice room to take a nap, right?
amanda i saw your panic look. hm it was like u really saw ghost like that.. XD
i know, we all hate that guy alot!

just came back from grandpa birthday celebration..
dinner as usual, somemore near to leisure mall
got my little angpau.. hehe
kong, wish u a very happy birthday and stay healthy!
i know u loves me alot, so do i!
tomorrow another celebration at chorus hotel
the delicious, yummy food are awaiting to fill up my stomach
lets look forward to it!

this few days are tiring
but not because of study
i am seriously not prepared for trials
i know something bad might happen
putting on a positive mind is a good thing!

2010-07-16T07:30:00.000-07:00

recalling back our sweets memories!

fifa world cup over? well have to wait another 4 years before we can gather at amanda house and shout for our favourite team again. n making hamburgers there, early morning art class, pillow fighting and lots more crazy stuff that we done.. crazy people do crazy stuff..hahaa

look our for big kids playing tick tak toe with himself.. XD

is pretty!
the ex-havoczz? still remember this name? LOL darlingku..
group picture! ham family! :D

whats fill up todays? attending school is kinda a waste of time. theres only 1 day per teacher teaching

and the rest is like waiting for the time to pass. suddenly mp pop out a question today, what will u wan to study?

n i said law of couse! haha

amanda with her business management

suki with event planner

adrian with civil engineering

mp with space engineering haha..
all seems to have such high cita-cita! maybe in future we need each others help.. haha
looking forward to it! :)

2010-07-07T07:54:00.000-07:00

dear diary,
you have been abandoned for so long.

a hot weather in the morning can turn to be a mess in the afternoon
raining cats and dogs, wind blowing strongly,
thunder storm are clearly heard
seriously an umbrella does not help. i am still wet from head to toe
shoe dont need said, completely wet
bag are in wet condition, books are a little, and very lucky, my kerja kayu survive!
i saw ppl running everywhere. some back to school
some out of the school.
my umbrella always fly out of my hand, now only i experience
how strong will the wind and water current is..
while walking out of the school, everyone was pushing here and there.
because i know everyone needs shelter
they are all looking for umbrella
then with the kindhearted me, (perasan) haha,,
shared my umbrella with 2 others.
suki and the prefect that jaga our class
but i dont understand, why the prefect kept repeating the word *sorry*?
that's so cute that 3 ppl under 1 umbrella. only the head is inside
where goes the other parts? under the rain after all
meet amanda at esso, meet a kind hearted guy too
lend suki to call her sis to rescue both of us
reach home not long after, snore like a pig
the benefits of cold weather
till now i am still putting my jacket on
i sense something, soon i will be developing a fever
it has been giving signals, body temperature were abnormal
it went up and down! having a roller coaster ride..
that's how rainy day make my day.

conclusion : rainy days are not that good after all. although i kinda believe, rain shines the world. LMAO

2010-06-29T02:18:00.000-07:00

july is coming in, so 3 more solid months left?
n what am i doing here? wasting time?
so many chapters to catch up with. prepare to die! *bang*
yea so soon that i will be owning my own room
but i will lose a good sis to talk to when at home
aiyoh, then who come and *chang* me when war is on?
i found that this few days, i really gone mad
has been calling janice as mummy n adrian as daddy
i am the child to both of them? omg.. LOL
sometimes i found myself really very childish
according to them, i ate the wrong medicine. hahaha
okay thats all for now, tata!

2010-06-25T21:22:00.000-07:00

my eye bags are really really dark
n feeling really really tired now
amanda, yours is much better then mine le
alarm keep on ringing this morning and i snooze it for 3 times
really very unwillingly to wake up so early on this pretty saturday
n really got bored with all the uber long speech. zZz
moving my head around to stay awake
i spot something, cm almost feel asleep.. hahaha

look.... is janice! the one who speaks to daddy? hm.. she is genius!

found a very relaxing ost yesterday
better then chiisana tegami
maybe this is helpful to me
whenever i face a maths problem
listening to this was the best solution ever
n the answer slowly burst out from my mind. XD

2010-06-16T07:34:00.000-07:00

i guess i understand something. i knew it
thx janice! you really give me lots of strength through your words
or should it be your father words? hahaha
n u know is really awesome and how special it was that u get to talk to gods
not everyone can do so. i declare myself as lucky
lucky to meet u in this school.
lucky to be close with u since form 1
and everything is lucky with you around. agree? ;)

everyone look so cool around. XD
monday was terrible hot
today was just a nice day for a nap
our class got over excited for the science experiment today
maybe because teacher said one of it might explode if u dont handle it well
most of them are very curious on how it happens includes me!
i think wanted it to happen most is aaron yap. LOL
he success breaking the test tube with adrian but not with the explosive way
is an accident! LOL
from the site of view, seems like everyone enjoy doing experiment
team-work is apply :D

halfway typing this, i am craving for chocolates!
how good if it appears infront of my eye right now. XD

2010-06-14T01:59:00.000-07:00

the usual me which have nothing to do

hm yea u know, i know.

holiday are not fun without outings, shopping, holidays and many mores exciting event

i look at the book and the book look back at me

i dont find it interesting. even tv cant entertain me

arg.. help pls! SOS :)

lucky my mum brought me out.

went to ioi mall and popular was the place i spend on the most

haha. just being a good girl as what i was wanted to be

at night, went back to grandparents house

go there to accompany kong kong while po po at genting

such a good granddaughter am i.. *perasan*

i spot something. kong kong is already old

it is still clearly in my mind, how he use to take care of me when i am young

he always sleep beside me as i am afraid of darkness when i am small

he prepare my breakfast before i go for tadika classes

he help me to draw as i hate seni alot

most importantly he din even hit be with the cane before

only give love and caring

i love you, kong!

i like this dress and i bought it.. hahaha

i like this too, but it is pity expensive

the ice cream act as the sun who shine my world.. LOL

tadaa! :)

2010-06-11T07:52:00.000-07:00

hello!
holidays give us time to rest. but 1 day is already enough. now i have more then enough. the whole day i have done nothing. i have plenty of free times but hardly found something to work on. always counting on the time, tik tok tik tok and theres another day come by. the sun rises and the next day begin, again what shall i do? *si si mou ci chou* thats what i always tell my sis before her university life begin and now is my turn to tell myself back. LOL lets see what i have done this holiday? ntg good besides spending money. now i have a shortage of income $$ haha. hou sien ah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2010-06-05T00:13:00.001-07:00

2 weeks of holiday has just started
feel so free. thinking of what i should do?
has just reshuffle my book shelves and the books was heavy
i move the books, the file..here and there
such a tiring job! helped mum with some of the house work too
as usual got scolded. =.=
got a super mission for this holiday. guess what?
designing my room all over again
so many things that need a change
wall will be painted in purple (favourite)
buy new photo frame to stick on to the wall
new bed sheet and choose new curtains as well
and etc. etc..

the bad news is facing the bitch everyday in the house.
i surely need a chance to escape to prevent the war from starting
before that, get my weapons ready and my little army.. hahahaha

2010-06-01T03:17:00.000-07:00

success is sweet, failure is bitter
there are always up and down in lifes
no changes can be made and just accept it willingly
disappointed sure will got de lar. but what to do?
blame yourself cly!
this time cant lc mp ady, infact give him lc back tim!
first time and the only one time...hahahaha
science and bi given me lots of shock
expected ady but being abit lucky for this time XD
n finally my long lost bm A is back..
finally hardwork did pay off
actually should be happy, but i am that hyper yet
dunno why. maybe still a little unsatisfied yet..

2 night stands at amanda house! fuyoh..
then last friday when to time square for movie - robinhood
the starting was quite bored, lucky the ending was abit better
n first time playing pool, hm very *noob* :D
if heat the ball also cant go far. i guess 3cm away only.. LOL

saturday, suddenly my aunt call ask me go genting
sana ada cold air mesti ikut lar since here is like so hot
n it rains, so the weather at genting is even colder then usual
1 word : syok!
drinking double chocolate ice blended in such cold weather lagi syok!

2010-05-21T00:00:00.000-07:00

i have abundant this blog for almost a week
whats actually happening?
exam has just mess up everything, my life!
its really annoy me with the millions of words to remember
n my brain aren`t functioning when it suppose to funtion
i also wanna apogise to anyone if i have
scolded u, ignore u or shows a dulan face to u
during this week, i just got angry easily
thats exam pressure. i still cant score straights A and wth..
anyway, 3 more days to suffer, 3 more stage to go..
just finish reading oliver super duper long post
hm.. what i wanna said is
a true friend always criticised you to your face but praised you in your absence
so get to realise your true friend everyone!

how many pages all together? how many words? how much space do u occupied my brain? LOL

2010-05-12T08:18:00.001-07:00

what was your feeling when watching Malaysia Thomas cup? heart beat getting faster? heart pump the blood out from your vein faster? woofs.. its really an exciting match against Denmark. what will it be when malaysia gonna versus china? never know who`s winning till the game end. haha i felt that the time is running out, seriously not enough. can it be more then 24 hours a day? yea, i felt it again. it came back and no idea to release it. nah..

2010-05-09T06:42:00.000-07:00

mothers day, n my mum brought me a present
that it look opposite? hahaha..
although i always against on what u said
i still love u :)
currently i dont enjoy studying, the book looks bored
school life is all about having fun but not studying!
at home, i always got distract by my sis
why must she watch autumn concerto when i plan to study?
i then eventually made my self to sit next to her and enjoy watching it
but what to do, exam is coming in 2 weeks time
how many more days i have to revise for from 1, 2 + 3?
its really a nightmare when u found out that you are running out of time
i found a very best solution. yea
studying with autumn concerto soundtrack as the background music
i guess i concentrate on the music more then the book

we have 5 solid months more before the big nightmare came!
GAMBATEH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2010-04-30T02:01:00.000-07:00

janice!! where were we? *winks*

its just like then Pandora box
when should it be open?
yea i learn from the show
autumn concerto is still playing in my mind
does this shows have any magnet or something that attract me?
i just love it so much! :)

papers, pen, glue cost me rm20
just some cheap thing and can be so expensive
oh no..the world is changing, so the the human
3a7, the lucky babies
thx god that the fan in our class is working
its kinda random and nothing much to update

bye! :)